I like weird guys?

BOSY...DIE LA ...i think i am habouring that little funny feeling about mr ch can. shit. i tell he is dam sly..u noe how n why? cos he first potrays this disgusting snobbish abominable idiot then later wen he becomes a little nicer . you'd think he likes you! den becos u tink he likes you, you start to think ( or at least I start to think la...haha) den its a sly circle back to liking him!!!! its those social psych terms that i cant rememebr. wat a mind player!! urgh....

die la....

but at least its a funny feeling ...i dun like him..but i'm super wary about him now. but i know if i continue to give him more than 2 cents worth of thought...i might just develop a bubble of wat-must-not-be-named. just like with all that had happened before!!!how disgusting can i get?!!!

its just a preoocupation ..its just a preoccupation...its just a preoccupation....

o ya..y is it that i suddenly write about all this?
COS!!! today!!! mr ch treated to me to lunch (as u may have already known) and he didnt invite the rest! so thats just 2 of us...sounds quite scandalous if you wana bitch about it. but that is not the crux of all my worries...
the thing is ...i actually enjoyed the meal !!!! we had some north indian food at some restaurant in little india and it was great! but i am hoping that i AM incorrectly attributing my love for india and mizpah to a sensationalised meal with him! u know that bridge experiment that had in social psych text? the one they had to cross the rickety bridge and most of the men mistook the excitement for sexual attraction? ya i am hoping mine is just a misattribution too!
and it wasnt just the food that was good. well...it wasnt those awkward meal in which two people just stair at their plate and eat in silence. neither was those politically charged conversations that we had (maybe just a tinge)..............
soooooooooooooooooooo
i am appalled and wary about why i actually enjoyed it so much!
haha...now that i have rationalised abit up there...it seems less scary.
my mind tells me that he's totally not the kind. cos i tink he needs another 10 years to mature up! and he's 26 !!
am i being too judgemental?
I DUN CARE!!!



bosy....do i have some kind of phobia or somtin for wat-must-not-be-named?
*shrugs*